Ok so I am not the best blogger. I began this by saying that I wanted to use this as a way to keep you all up to date on what is going on witht the adoption process. We have been officially waiting for 3 months. It doesn't sound like very long but it feels more like years rather than months. We have gotten several emails from our caseworker to touch base and tell us that our profile has not been shown at all yet. We are told that it is very common for new profiles not to be shown in the first couple of months, so here is to hoping that March is gonna get our profile some action.
We have been trying to keep busy, which isn't hard for us. We have the crib and the dresser/changing table at home. They are still in the boxes but they are out of layaway and sitting in the baby's room. We alos bought a stroller that I fell in love with while we were out checking them out and trying to figure out how they all work. We ordered it and it also sits in a box in the room. We have even chosen a paint color which is also purchased and sitting in the baby's room. We have not yet done anything with these items except put them in the room. Sometimes I think that we should really get going and clean things out and get it painted and start to set it up. Other times I think that once I set it up will I want to just walk by an empty baby room everyday. Rick teases that one of these days he is gonna come home to fine me sitting in there just starring at the walls or something. I will admit that
I have sat in that room and imagined what it will look like and feel like, but I don't make a habit of it.
Like I have said before, somedays are harder than others. Somedays I wake up with a very overwhelming feeling of I want our baby now. But, we continue to try to take it one day at a time. Everyday something happens that keeps me going. Like, meeting a patient at work that had adopted an infant through the same agency that we are working with. Her and her husband only waited 6 months for a match. Meeting her that day was perfect timing. I was having an exceptionally hard week and she gave me renewed strength. Other days it is seeing a multi-racial family out at the store or at the zoo. I want more than anything to walk over and start talking to them and ask them about their family but you never know how they will react. I want to talk to anyone that I can adoption, but strangers aren't really all that into my story at this point. Oh well, they will have many questions for me soon enough! People's reaction to hearing that we are adopting is always positive. I just want to talk about it alot more than they do.
We know that this will happen for us, but the not knowing when is FRUSTRATING!!!!!!! As always everyone's love and support is amazing and we defnintely couldn't get through all this without it. If you can please share our story, our profile, our blog or whatever with anyone you can. You never know who may knows someone who knows someone....!